After my mom insisted on watching the video of my bundle show
At the end of September, I returned to my hometown.
After learning that I was going to perform in the UK, my mom insisted on watching the video of my previous performance.
In her words, “How did I not know that you kid still had a bit of an artistic element?” ”
Emmmm, to be honest, this is no different from tying me up and reading my QQ space next to me, which can be called the pinnacle of humiliating play.
After transferring the video to her, she picked up the iPad she usually uses to watch short videos, and clicked on it directly to play it publicly.
When I saw my mother’s expression and heard my music as deafening as a square dance accompaniment, I knew I was finished, and the sinking of artistic expression in the eyes of middle-aged and elderly women in third- and fourth-tier cities was inevitable.
My mom looked at the video, then at me, and then at the video, and finally popped up, “This man is you?” Ambi Furb. ”
I don’t know which live broadcast room she learned English words, but this short sentence is already comparable to a textbook-level dirty talk, which is not only very dirty, but also makes me not want to talk to her at all.
Everyone else is “tiger poison does not eat children”, but she is the only one who “tiger poison does not know children”. ”
Of course, it may also be caused by the fact that I wore pajamas and pajamas after returning to my hometown, and I was unkempt all day long, after all, no matter how glamorous the white-collar workers in the big city are, they have to become two dogs when they return to the village.
In fact, there is much more to the prejudice against rope bondage than that.
For example, many people think that this is a yellow dress in the skin of a performance, and you can watch a large-scale training or striptease show if you buy a ticket.
All I can say is that there is a deeper misunderstanding of striptease than about rope bondage.
Except for those large-scale performances of 30 minutes of assembly line work near Southeast Asian attractions, as far as some striptease performances I have seen are concerned, the actors also have their own artistic pursuits.
In 2018, I watched a striptease in Taiwan that moved me to tears. The dancer is called Nancy.
She probably tells the story of a young girl who was abused by her boyfriend, and then gradually grew up to be independent.
There were a total of four strips during the performance.
The first time I undressed was when I was a student and was lured by my boyfriend to taste the forbidden fruit, the second time was to please my boyfriend, the third time was to give up on the roadside after being subjected to domestic violence, the fourth time was when the scumbag came back to entangle and propose, and at the last moment she tore off her wedding dress and woke up and grew up.
In the end, she gave each of us the torn pieces of her wedding dress and told everyone to love themselves, and at that moment, she was naked but radiant.
Undressing for her is a way to express, not a purpose.
If we only focus on the undressing thing, it is true that the dancers are graceful, but I don’t think that’s the point of the show.
The same is true for rope bondage performances.
The author’s mission is always to express, whether it is a performance, an article, or even if the audience understands it wrong, it doesn’t matter, but the point is to express it.
I know this sounds abstract, but let me explain it a little more.
There was a time when a friend fostered her cat in my house, a white Ragdoll.
Although it is beautiful, it will get on its butt hair every time it poops, and if you shear it, you will hit me, and then hide in the corner and lick it yourself, as if I am afraid that I will steal the shit on its ass.
In order to prevent it from licking feces, I have to wait for it to poop, and every time it starts to shave cat litter, I have to prepare to wipe its butt to prevent it from licking shit and then lick me, which is comparable to a “toilet slave”.
However, it is such a cat that plays with me every day as a “toilet slave”, and it is the cat that loves rope the most I have ever met.
When I’m not playing with the rope, it sits around my rope and treats the rope pile as a nest; When I was playing with the rope, it would fight with the flying rope, and when I was tired, he would sit next to me and watch me play with the rope.
Little did I know that a cat would become a long-term viewer of mine.
A wonderful chemistry arose between the two of us—I knew it was watching, and I knew it was interesting, but not what I wanted to say; It knew I was doing something interesting, but it didn’t know exactly what it was doing, and it was really interesting, so it sat there and watched.
After reading it, if it’s in a good mood, it will chase me and beat me up, because I got someone else’s taste of its beloved rope.
But at least it doesn’t give me dirty talk like my mom does, and it’s a hands-on cat who “can do it and never meows”, so I kind of like this cat audience.
It’s like I’m talking to it on the phone, I’m in human language, it’s meowing, and we can’t understand what the other is saying, but I know it’s listening, and it knows I’m talking.
It is a tacit understanding that transcends species and belongs exclusively to the speaker and the listener.
So I will always remember it, a cat that loves to lick; It will always remember me, the “toilet slave” who always made people fly around in the sky.
At the end of a previous performance, an audience member came to me with great emotion and said, “You inserted a piece of cat music in the middle of it, this is to express that you became a cat when you were tied up, loved and spoiled by you, and then you tied her up and suffered from gains and losses, right?” ”
Actually, not at all.
But at that moment, I remembered my tacit understanding with the cat.
I expressed it, she received, and then developed her own understanding, and as for what the understanding was, it didn’t matter. There are a thousand Hamlets in the eyes of a thousand people.
That’s probably what it means.
It’s not about doing reading comprehension, it’s about empathizing and connecting.
This most primitive feeling of human beings will remain in my memory for a long time, yes, I want to be remembered by everyone, this is my selfish intention to do the show.
After many years, maybe you will also find the performance video of the year and look left, look at it again, and then say to me, who is already old: “This man is you?” unbeliveable！ ”