Normally, if a couple who come together because of the BDSM hobby can go through a lot of hardships and enter the palace of marriage, we call it “cultivating the right fruit”, and are willing to generously send blessings, and there are several real stories before this as a happy ending.
But life doesn’t stop when you get married, it’s like a tireless wheel, carrying everyone forward, perhaps as “Mr. and Mrs. Smith” says, “The story ends well because it’s far from over.” ”
After signing the agreement, I made an appointment with him to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get a divorce after New Year’s Day.
He replied on WeChat: “Okay. “Cold, brief, didn’t say a word.
When I first met, he wasn’t like this, and he screamed happily as a sister.
We met at a party in a circle, when we went to eat hot pot together after participating in the event, he came for the first time, but he quickly cooked himself, carefully helped everyone to pour food and drinks, everyone coaxed him to say that he was born a “housework slave”, who accepted him is simply not too happy.
He cramped himself to say that he had no experience and should not be very likeable.
I don’t know who suddenly pointed the finger at me, “It’s good to be inexperienced, this sister just said that she wants to find an inexperienced little milk dog.” ”
I was so frightened that I denied it, and he blushed instantly, and the aroma of the hot pot rose, and it was like a dream, and our fates began to entangle.
After eating, everyone went home in twos and threes, and those who stopped by took a section, and those who didn’t take a taxi by themselves.
He came up to me and asked, “Where does my sister live?” If I stop by the way, I can take a taxi to take you back first? ”
When everyone heard this, they walked away with a sense of humor, consciously creating an opportunity for us to be alone.
Once in the car, he started to talk to me about the places he had been, the pets he had, the books and movies he loved to read.
He seems to have endless topics to talk about, and he can’t use up his energy, even if I just nod my head and agree, he can complete this surging speech alone.
I remember being amused, interrupting him abruptly in the middle of a topic and asking, “Do you want to soak me?” ”
He was like a child who had been seen through his thoughts, and he was stunned there at a loss.
Seeing that he was so shy, I deliberately raised my voice and asked the driver, “Master, you have also listened all the way, based on your experience of people who have come over, does he want to soak me?” ”
The master held the steering wheel without turning his head, “Hey, what’s this?” Isn’t this the passion of young people? If you are young, cherish it, and when you get married, you will only feel annoyed, like me and my wife, if you can say two words after eating, you can be considered patient. ”
At that time, we were so amused by the driver’s humor that no one realized that it was a curse written by fate.
We started our intimate relationship with DOM/SUB.
I called him “puppy” and he called me “master”.
It was a really happy time, we met once a week, he came to me, he turned away from the appearance of a human being, and became a big dog completely dominated by me, and I cooked for him, trained him, and took him to experience the happy time of “not being a person”.
In addition, he is also sticky to share his life and happiness with me every day, he will share with me when he hears good songs, he will take me out when he eats delicious meals, take me to listen to the concert of treasure singers, take me to skiing, diving, and do things I have never tried.
He’s very good at pleasing me.
After knowing that I was very possessive, he took the initiative to propose to me that he wanted to delete all the girls in other circles on his mobile phone.
I was a little surprised, because I had thought about it, but I never had the luxury of asking him to do it, but he rubbed into my arms like he saw through me and said, “Puppies are satisfied when they have owners.” ”
At that moment, I felt my heart melting, and I wanted to give him everything that was good.
The real decision to marry him was in mid-2021.
At that time, I had just changed to a job that required entertainment, and I had to go out to eat and socialize with the leader almost every day.
I remember drinking a lot that day, mixing white wine and foreign wine, and by the time I got home, I couldn’t find the toilet anymore.
Lying on the floor alone, I suddenly felt that my fingers began to feel cold and numb, completely disobeyed my own call, and my heart began to have severe pain, I used all my strength to open the phone, open WeChat, and click on the voice with him, but I really didn’t have the strength to speak.
I can’t remember what I said to him on the phone, but I remember that time seemed to be super slow and I couldn’t hear any other sounds, but someone in my head kept asking me, “If you were going to die today, what would be the most regrettable thing about you?” ”
I wasn’t even scared of that voice, I just wondered for no reason, huh? Am I going to die today?
While I was still wondering, suddenly a loud knock on the door and a cool breeze whistling in me pulled me back to reality. He rushed in from the wind, followed by two big whites tearing, saying that he couldn’t enter the community casually without a pass, and he also needed a 120-open certificate to come in to save people.
His voice was very loud, so loud that I can remember it now, pointing to the two big whites and saying, “Go to xxx to prove it, who of you will be responsible if my girlfriend delays the treatment?” Who is responsible? Also watch? Come here and help carry people! ”
When I got downstairs, the ambulance arrived, and he grabbed my hand all the way, and I felt like I had a hot chain all the time, tugging at my soul for fear that I would scatter and fly away.
Fortunately, there was no major problem, the doctor said that the heart was fine, but he was almost suffocated by his own vomit while lying down.
When I got home the next day, I found that the ground was a mess, full of my vomit, and filled with the disgusting smell of decay.
I was a little sick and wanted him to go back quickly, but he opened the window and carried me to the bed, and then began to squat with a rag to clean up.
While using his phone to check how to get rid of the smell of vomit, he laughed at how a person of my age could be half choked by vomit. In the end, another person cleaned up the house.
He stood in front of me with a smug face and said, I can’t afford to support you from socializing, but it’s more than enough to help you clean up the mess.
It’s not romantic at all, but it was at such a strange moment that I felt like he was the hero of my life and felt like I wanted to marry him and live with him.
At the end of ’21, we got married, and there was a letter exchange session at the wedding, and his signature was “Always be a competent guard dog”, and I wrote “Leave the best love to the dog”, because we were so ashamed that we didn’t read it, just looked at each other and smiled.
At that time, we became a model couple in the eyes of many friends in the circle, and even posted a marriage certificate on a social software in the circle, and received hundreds of comments in one night.
We all naively think that we can do what the blessing says – a hundred years of harmony.
22 years is a year that I am sincerely happy for him, and his work has finally improved in this year.
First, he was promoted to become a manager, and in July, there was a vacancy in a branch of the group, and he decisively seized the opportunity and transferred to become the deputy general manager.
When he discussed with me, I could sense his desire for promotion, after all, the opportunity could not be lost, and it would never come again, so I decisively supported him to go, and teased him, “The promoted husband has become more contrasting!” When you come back, I will punish you for kneeling at the door, and then humiliate you, it turns out that the dignified vice president is a puppy in front of his wife~”
He has been gone for 6 months, except for coming back once a month, the rest of the time he relies on the Internet to maintain his relationship.
During that period, I heard him complain for the first time that he was very tired from work, and he was so tired that he didn’t want to talk. I think he used to be the one who was looking for the wrong thing, and now it’s time to change me.
So I desperately found all kinds of funny and fun things to share with him, afraid that he would be lonely, and I began to learn how to take good-looking large-scale photos to show him, even though I never took x photos.
But he always showed that he was not very interested, and once after a while, he said that he was a little sleepy and wanted to go to sleep, and I asked him a little worriedly, are you okay?
He said that everything was good, and every day was fulfilling. Then there was silence.
I was a little jealous, muttering to him that in the past, the enrichment of some people was to hear good songs and share them with me, and to share them with me when they drank delicious milk tea, but now the enrichment of some people is to say “I am very fulfilling” to me.
He was stunned for a moment, and a trace of imperceptible impatience flashed in his eyes, “Oh, it’s different, it’s all about work now, and you don’t understand it, and besides, you’re not in this business, so there’s no need to worry about it.” ”
After hanging up the phone, I fell into a deep sadness, feeling that he didn’t love me anymore, and at the same time felt that maybe as a wife, I should really understand my husband and not be jealous for such a trivial matter.
So I regrouped my emotions and messaged him, “Husband. The weekend just happened to be fine, I’ll take another day off on Monday, and I’ll go play with you for three days in a row! I can accompany you on weekends, and when you go to work on Monday, I will help you clean up in the dormitory. ”
“No, baby, a few leaders came over on the weekend, and we arranged a party.” He sent a voice note.
“What leader is going to you on the weekend? And isn’t it an epidemic now? Why are you still running around? I asked him.
“Yes, I’m also annoyed, the head office, if you have to come over, I’ll go and accompany you.” His voice was exhausted, and to put it mildly, blocked all my plans to meet.
I wanted to ask him if he didn’t actually want to see me, but I felt like a resentful woman when I asked this, and I struggled for a long time before I struggled to type a few words, “We’ll always be together, right?” ”
He replied with one word, “Hmm.” ”
Before going to bed, he flipped through the previous chat history, and he said that every time I sent him a message, he happily wanted to wag his tail, and said that whoever dared to reply to me with only one word, he would turn into a husky and bite the other person to death.
Seeing this, tears have blurred my eyes.
Turn off the phone, and an APP push message just jumped to the screen, writing the classic sentence in “To Kill a Mockingbird” – “Bumpy road, finally reach the starry sky”.
Finally, I couldn’t hold back my emotions and buried myself in the pillow and cried loudly.
I have a vague premonition that we won’t be able to reach the stars.
When he came back again, he seemed to have been worn out of all his passion, sitting on the sofa and playing with his mobile phone after eating, and completing the tasks between husband and wife mechanically at night, I asked him if he wanted to be more exciting later?
He shook his head and said that he didn’t have any thoughts about this at all recently, just thinking about how to make more money, and hoped that his wife would understand.
I got into his arms and said, “But you can’t make enough money, and you can’t completely lose your life.”
He sat up abruptly and said impassionedly, “Wrong! Miss by a mile! Only when you have money can you have a life, and now I can see how those rich people live, saying that they are not allowed to gather, but people can still find a business club; KTV refuses to accompany the wine, they can use the money to throw it until you are willing to accompany, and you have to kneel to accompany it, I found out, what BDSM is playing at home, only if you have money and power, can you be a real S. ”
I was a little confused and asked him, did you also go to KTV to order a little girl?
He became impatient again, “No, why are your concerns so strange?” Is that what I’m trying to say? And the leaders are all there, as long as I don’t fit in, pretend to be high, do you think it’s appropriate? Besides, it’s just singing, and nothing happens. ”
He rightly seemed to be disrespectful to him if I asked any more questions.
I hugged him tightly and discussed with him, “Why don’t you apply for a transfer back husband?” I don’t want you to work in that environment anymore. ”
He felt unreasonable about me, “I worked so hard and worked hard to get this opportunity, why should I come back?” It’s become a small screw in the head office again, what am I trying to do? ”
“So what? Is it bad to be safe and stable? Can you understand my concern, I don’t even know you anymore. My tone almost turned to pleading.
“It’s you who can’t understand me!” He suddenly raised his voice, “Other people’s wives wish their husbands were going up, look at what you’re doing?” Unreasonable! With that, he took his clothes and left home.
I called my mom to complain, and my dad angrily called his parents, vowing to get justice for his daughter.
In fact, the contradiction is obvious, I am 5 years older than him, and what I want is stability and possession, while the younger one yearns for hard work and freedom.
Neither of us gave in, and my dad even moved out of the “house and car were all paid by my family when I got married”, and finally with the efforts of both parents, he finally compromised and was willing to coordinate and change to a job that could take care of the family.
After the Chinese New Year in 2023, he applied to the head office for a transfer back, but was rejected, and finally changed jobs in desperation. My parents also realized that this might be a bit of a blow to him, so they bought us a new car, hoping to calm him down.
But who knew that this was the beginning of the nightmare.
Maybe it’s because he blames my family for messing with his promotion, and he holds a grudge against me. This grudge became “non-cooperation” + “non-cooperation” in later life.
In addition to eating together, he spends almost all of his time after work swiping his mobile phone and playing games, as if to say, “Doesn’t being self-motivated make you unhappy?” Then I’ll show you the mess. ”
I tried to communicate with him, but he couldn’t say a word before he could say anything.
When we think back to what the driver said when we first met, it was like a curse that the gods had put down on us.
We all know that this kind of life is unsustainable, but we don’t know how to escape, so we can only tear and roll down the snow with each other until the avalanche buries us.
In May 2023, I found out that he was cheating.
I asked him if he really liked each other or if he was just trying to get revenge on me. If you really like it, I’ll let you go, if it’s for revenge, I feel seriously offended and need to apologize.
He said, “What do you want to let me go?” Do you really think I belong to you? When you play BDSM, it’s just a sex game. You want a divorce, no way. If you have the ability to sue me in the court, I’m a rotten person now, I don’t care about anything, I want to take revenge on you for the rest of my life, disgusting you for the rest of my life. ”
I was so angry that I was speechless, and I sorted out the evidence of his cheating and prepared to send it to his unit, and his parents came to me again, hoping that I would not make a big fuss about the relationship between husband and wife, and solve it privately, and they would definitely find a way to restrain him.
In addition, he suddenly admitted his mistake, saying that those were all angry words before, and the derailment was also to anger me, and I put the matter on hold again after a while, and was ready to negotiate to see how to divorce.
In July 2023, our car suddenly disappeared, and when I checked it, I found that it had been sold by him, and then I remembered that he said that their unit had a car supplement every month, so I transferred the car to his name.
remembered that most of the things he bought when he got married were in his name, and he was instantly frightened and broke out in a cold sweat on his back, and while seeking a lawyer to consult a solution, he stabilized his emotions.
In August 2023, he suddenly told me that the money from selling the car had been squandered, and asked me to transfer him another 5w, otherwise he would jump off the building with me.
I said he was crazy and was about to go out, but he dragged me all the way from the couch to the window, pressed me half of my body out of the window, and forced me to transfer money to him.
I was so frightened that I immediately called the police after transferring money to him, and when the police came, I persuaded us to reconcile, and I asked him to return the money, but he said that he was mentally ill, and finally everyone was exhausted before he got the money back.
In September ~ December 2023, I was so unbearable that I rented a small house outside to live by myself, but he didn’t know where I lived, and harassed me every night by banging on the door and slamming the door, and it was useless to call the police, and the police said that it was difficult for them to do things between husband and wife, so they could only persuade.
Because of the fear of being hurt, I couldn’t go to work during that time, and my parents even simply came to Beijing from Shanghai to be my personal bodyguards during that time, and finally the two families sat down to negotiate several times, but they were really exhausted and exhausted the last bit of affection, so they reached an agreement, and our family gave them a lot of money, and then divorced as soon as possible, and never saw each other again in this life.
My mother told me that it was good that I didn’t have a child, otherwise I would have been devastated.
But I was thinking, Mom, I’ve already broken down.
When the hero of the world who picked me up from the vomit and ran down to the 9th floor coincided with the madman who hysterically pinned me to the window, my heart was already shattered.
When the person who said he wanted to protect me for the rest of his life became a person who said he would disgust me for the rest of my life, Mom, how can I trust others in the future?
I’m afraid this marriage will shatter all the illusions I have in my life about growing old.
When we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau that day, we were silent the whole time, signed each other, and parted ways after getting the divorce certificate.
I thought he would have something to say to me, but he left without looking back.
Thinking about it, after tossing for so long, I still had the strength to be angry and sad before, but now I have long since left only silent and calm.
When I took a taxi home, my mother called me and told me not to stay in Beijing, in case he couldn’t think of doing anything out of the ordinary.
When the driver heard this, he asked me enthusiastically, what was wrong? What’s the trouble? Why can’t Beijing stay anymore?
I said I just got divorced.
The driver said, “Yo, congratulations, then you can be considered to have a new life, and now you have to live well!” ”
The driver’s words were enlightening, like a ray of sunshine on my heart.
I suddenly felt that there were too many possibilities in life, far more than the unhappiness I experienced, and for me, a beautiful script that finally married me made me a broken farce, but I am grateful that life still gave me a chance to start over.
Outside the window, the flowers and willows are green, and the sun is shining.
“Well, I’m going to live well now!” As if I had survived the catastrophe, I replied softly in my heart.